Think back before you OWNED a car..
Posted: Wed Jul 28, 2004 12:43 pm
This has been bothering me, a few weeks ago i was the most anxies wanna be modifier probably on the block, i had my Vibe GT to tune and wanted to tune it, i dont know what exactly happened (didnt see it as often as its actually driven by my dad alot, had to drive people around in it that i didnt know so well and although i showed off the car got no feedback on if they liked it, so i took it as if the didnt whatnot etc)anyways latly i havnt felt at all like modifying, atleast for the last week and a half ive been really destressed about modifing, i wanna feel like tuning a car but i can make myself feel a way i want to, because recently i sometimes dont even wanna drive the vibe, thinking about the vibe at my badder of the moments makes me stressed, and at my very best momments now adays i feel like maybe puting in a CAI and possibly standard Magnaflow exhaust just so my dad can feel good about his car, i honestly kinda just wanna take a break from cars, in a way atleast, its a sad feeling really, ive felt this way about video games before, and although i used to be a hardcore fan of Battlefield 1942, for atleast 3 months hearing the word "Battlefield" honest to god depressed me, its like this with cars, luckily not as bad, i think ive hit the worst spot, and are now kinda going up and down, right now im talking about it to see if it hurts or helps, ive learned from my past minor depressions that after up to 3-6 months i feel almost normal, atleast, and probably with the right people even as good, i wish i could make myself feel like modifying this car, but i simply have to say, the Vibe for me is bearly home(that being a big factor even without odd depressive discouragment)anyways worrie is a factor the less i worrie the better it generally is, i used to be a series OCD patiant, i still have ADD but its better, and stopped taking meds(by permission of doctor) six months ago, i hope this oddness isnt the price i pay for not wanting to take meds that alter my mind, and in taht whatever i try to enjoy my mind makes me stop liking it, will go away, its very annoying to say the least and in itself depressing, but it teeter totters, and like i said the less i worrie the more it goes away, the more i think about intreging things like politics, family and friends, memories, it all helps, but i just want to be normal, since i was little ive liked cars so i would be kind of shocked if it totally killed my interest in cars, but i think atleast with all the things going on around the vibe i might just call it quits, atleast for now, and i want my own car but i hope like hell i dont randomly get unnattached to it for no good reason, uhg this is weirdsorry hope i didnt waste your time, just looking for any help, this as a whole isnt new, it is new to cars though for the most part(but not 100% completly, ive had a few days ive been down before, but not like this)and i odd note, when i was at my very very worst, i happened to drink cold water and the shacking from being cold actually got my mind off it and i felt better(but not nearly normal)Driving:here are some things that i did the few days before i got really depressed, went to dragstrip and watched abunch of cars do amazing 8-10 second 1/4miles, saw street legal cars do 10-14, and almost raced my friends who had some of teh slowest cars there besides one of the cameros that runs low 13s and should get a high 12 if he runs good, soo i felt less masculin to say the less, drove really fast (90-110) down backroads, that might have not hurt actually, learned how to jump off line accuratly(i dont htink this hurt but i did learn it 2 days before i felt like crap) and last i followed my friend around in his pickup with 2 semi friends semi strangers(kinda like new friends, possibly really good friends but dont know them well) showed them the car but they didnt react much, whichi think killed my enthusiasm, i dont know why i should think that they would care, but i think it killed me somewhat i dono just wanted to add this, because some of my craziest moments happened right before i got depressed